Jousting with my brains today, will you C/C please?

To me this is when I fall on my own, 'rusted dulling sword.' When I consider some idea or action, I hesitate as 'even in courageous thrust and parry' I will be wounded as I sometimes am and always through my own fault. Dallas, to you I feel this is your own subconscious battling with your consciousness as you deal with what life has thrown at you. And it is never kind. But others are kind, like your family, and you know it.